Yesterday was so enlightening for me. After I wrote my last post the reality continued to sink in. After I was diagnosed I was actually relieved to put a name to what I was going through and thus started a journey of digesting everything I could for help on how to manage it. A huge blessing to have so many resources.
Here’s the funny thing…I never really faced that I will be this way for the rest of my life. I just knew I could change my own brain with enough knowledge (lol). I even tried a natural bipolar “cure” consisting of raw honey, apple cider vinegar, bitters, etc. because the author said she was symptom free. I wouldn’t suggest doing this, it does not work in my experience and it’s quite a regimen. A month before I began blogging, I even thought of trying this new less evasive electroshock therapy I saw on the news. Anything to get my brain to change.
But, seeing another trait that is because of bipolar made me face the truth. Basically, I didn’t want to know that I can’t change it or at some point I may have to be placed in an institution when if I don’t have the support and consistency of my family. I’ve seen what that looks like and I don’t want to ever get to that place again. Didn’t want to believe that as hard as I have worked to get here, it can all be taken away in an instant. I am a prisoner of my own mind and it’s not my or anyone else’s fault.
The thing is… I realize now that I denied the fear inside that I will never be well. I irrationally believed if I implemented enough tools, read enough books, try this, eat that, educated myself constantly, I could finally be free of it.. I spoke of it as if it is who I am but in my heart I knew someday, somehow I would beat it.
I sat in my garage for an hour last night just mourning the loss of my delusion. I cry even as I write this knowing the truth of it. There is not a set of steps. No magic formula to cure it …. ever. It is for life. I am 43 years old and I am just now facing that I will be sick for the rest of my life.
And right now someone else is mourning their delusions and weeping too. And for you whoever you are… I am giving you a mental hug and am relieved I am not alone.
So instead of continuing my pity party of one I would like to celebrate this continued awaking with some amazing and successful people who have had their own disabilities but still did not let that stop them from greatness!!! PS… see turned it to positive 😉
These valiant people have amazed the world with their courage, determination, strength and amazing will. These people have overcome all the obstacles they faced and never let their disabilities come in their path of glory. With their determination these extraordinary individuals have made a difference in the lives of a lot of people.
Some of such personalities who have touched the world with their remarkable stories and amazing talent are given below:
ALBERT EINSTEIN (MARCH 14, 1879 – APRIL 18, 1955)
When talking about the famous disabled people the first name that comes to the mind is that of the great Albert Einstein. Albert Einstein who is the greatest scientist of the twentieth century and the greatest physicist of all time had a learning disability in the early parts of his life. Till the age of three he could not speak and was severely dyslexic and autistic.
As he grew older he started to focus on the only thing he was exceptional at and that was mathematics. Soon he fought his disability and entered into the world of theoretical physics where he changed the face of physics and science forever. His theory of relativity is said to be the most revolutionary theory of physics. He won a Nobel Prize for his photoelectric effect theory in 1921.
HELEN ADAM KELLER (JUNE 27, 1880 – JUNE 1, 1968)
Disability: Blind and Deaf
A prolific author, Keller was well traveled and was outspoken in her opposition to war. She campaigned for women’s suffrage, workers’ rights, and socialism, as well as many other progressive causes. In 1920, she helped to found the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU). Keller and Sullivan traveled to over 39 countries, making several trips to Japan and becoming a favorite of the Japanese people. Keller met every US President from Grover Cleveland to Lyndon B. Johnson and was friends with many famous figures, including Alexander Graham Bell, Charlie Chaplin, and Mark Twain.Helen Adams Keller was an American author, political activist and lecturer. She was the first deaf and blind person to earn a Bachelor of Arts degree. The story of how Keller’s teacher, Annie Sullivan, broke through the isolation imposed by a near complete lack of language, allowing the girl to blossom as she learned to communicate, has become known worldwide through the dramatic depictions of the play and film The Miracle Worker. Sullivan taught Helen to communicate by spelling words into her hand, beginning with d-o-l-l for the doll that she had brought her as a present.
STEPHEN HAWKING (JANUARY 8, 1942)
Disability: Motor Neuron disease or a variant of ALS (Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis)
Though the motor neuron disorder ALS has confined Hawking to a wheelchair, it hasn’t stopped him from lecturing widely, making appearances on television shows such as Star Trek: The Next Generation and The Simpsons — and planning a trip into orbit with Richard Branson’s Virgin Galactic. (He recently experienced weightlessness aboard Zero Gravity Corporation’s “Vomit Comet.”) A true academic celebrity, he uses his public appearances to raise awareness about potential global disasters — such as global warming — and to speak out for the future of humanity: “Getting a portion of the human race permanently off the planet is imperative for our future as a species,” he says.
Hawking serves as Lucasian Professor of Mathematics at the University of Cambridge, where he continues to contribute to both high-level physics and the popular understanding of our universe.
“We are just an advanced breed of monkeys on a minor planet of a very average star. But we can understand the Universe. That makes us something very special.” — Stephen Hawking.
LUDWIG VAN BEETHOVEN (DECEMBER 16, 1770 – MARCH 26, 1827)
Beethoven never married even though he proposed to plenty of women who rejected him (he wasn’t very attractive and he had a rather nasty temper). Yet in spite of his unpleasant personality, Beethoven is best defined by his music.
Although Beethoven gradually lost his hearing, he continued composing. He composed many of the most famous musical works of all time, such as his Ninth Symphony, after he had become totally deaf.
MARLA RUNYAN (JANUARY 4, 1969)
It is a great achievement for any man to perform extraordinary acts – but it is even more so when this is done despite a terrible disability.