I want to end this week coming back to where I started…being positive. I would like to begin with a couple funny things I found online that had me absolutely giggling. (If I’m gonna be forever fighting this battle I might as well find humor in it).
How many Bipolar People does it take to change a light-bulb?
It depends on what mood they’re in.
I’m 50 shades of bipolar and have no ‘safe word’. You have been warned.
Welcome to the Mental Health Hotline!
- If you are Obsessive-Compulsive, press 1 repeatedly, being certain to touch the table and counting to 10 between each press.
- If you have Multiple Personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
- If you are Paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on the line so we can trace your call.
- If you are Delusional, press 7, and your call will be transferred to the Mother Ship. ??If you are Schizophrenic, listen carefully, and a small voice will tell you which number to press.
- If you are Manic-Depressive, it doesn’t matter which number you press since no one will answer.
- If you have Bi-Polar Disorder, please leave a message after the beep. Or before the beep. Or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.
OK moving on….
What a week this has been. I have embraced what is and I am ready to…. continue being who I am and no longer look for the almighty cure. It is good for me to face what is and tomorrow I may (probably will) change my mind. I will continue to find tools and seek ideas that assist me through the ups and downs. No more …. No less.
When I thought about it, what if I wasn’t bipolar? What wonderful parts of me would never be? There are so many wonderful things about me that maybe wouldn’t be there without my illness.
A few things I love about me:
I have great compassion and love for those who are helpless (animals, elderly, children, disabled in general, etc).
I can be very creative.
I am often keenly insightful about others and often find myself in the grocery line somehow drawing out a clerk’s life story.
I dress according to my mood. From 50s swing dress and stilettos (finding walking on them a bit harder with age) to boho to sweats and everything in between. My daughter used to say my personality was based on my outfits. She was torn on if she liked “date” with dad mom or “work” mom better. “Sporty” mom who apparently was more tomboy and youthful she also liked but wasn’t her favorite.
I am fiercely loyal to my family. I would die for them. And given a certain mood could harm someone else.
I love love love learning new things. If something is brought to my attention that changes the way I think about it, I am overjoyed. Love that there is always more to know.
I do not follow trends. I have always hated name brand anything as far back as Jr High. My mom would try so hard to get me to wear Guess or whatever label, but I didn’t want to pay them to advertise FOR them. What is considered cool now will be out tomorrow. From what is deemed beautiful to style to what foods are good/bad for you. So I just do me and leave the fads to others.
I have times of enlightenment and connection to God. Just a sheer love and reverence. Not always…. sometimes I don’t feel anything at all. But in those close times I feel more at peace and harmony with things.
This one is just because I am proud of me not really about what’s good about me perse’… I started writing a blog and have written 5 days a week since I began. Not always how I expected the blog to turn out but I posted it anyway. I am also happy to know that next week I may not want to anymore. I’m happy because I finally accept that’s ok too.