I had to take a break while I regrouped.
I had to come to terms with the uncertainty of my own livelihood, and what appears to be an uncertainty of our world as a whole. I became too overwhelmed, even allowing myself to drink one night to the point of 3 days worth of hangover. (not drinking like that for so long I didn’t foresee my body no longer can sustain that level of toxicity.) Definitely not an answer to my self pity.
But through the struggle I came to realize, now is the time to become strong, grounded and ready for whatever road I must travel. Truly ready. I am thankful for the steps I have been taking these past months which it turns out was an unforeseen godsend.
So I continue on my path where I left off. I must have gratitude in times of lack the most and I choose to implement that fully into my life.
Starting with the fact that I woke up this morning. I am grateful that each morning I can wake to a new day with it’s endless possibilities. I am reminding myself to greet each day and my husband with a happy good morning and then anticipate a good day as I set my feet on the floor. Doesn’t mean every day is flawless and full of rainbows, but anticipating good does change the lens which I view things. For this I am truly grateful.