I remember the day it finally hit me that the life I am living is fleeting. The day I knew that although life may not get easier or even at times bearable, it is only a blink of an eye until I will know only joy, only peace only love.
I had left a job where my symptoms were bad. I had to confess the truth of my illness and I knew as I left I was faced with another moment of rejection. I can always tell by the way they react, that their understanding of bipolar is clearly negative and don’t give me a chance to prove that despite my challenges I will work twice as hard to make up for my shortcomings.
I began to drive home and had to pull over. I didn’t understand why God wouldn’t just heal me. I had prayed face down, pleaded, and had faith. But at that moment standing there, I gave up. I didn’t want to climb this mountain any more.
As I stood outside of my car just staring out at the field next to me I decided to play some pandora and right there a song came on that made me weep.
I really heard the words, felt as if He wanted me to hear it at that moment to understand that this life is just a season and I began to see right there that He would help me. Maybe not cure me, but give me the strength and tools to continue climbing. I want to give a huge thank you to God for giving me His sight to change my own point of view.
I just heard the song again and it made me feel compelled to share.