Good Bye and God Bless

Well guys it’s been a fun ride.  I feel my need to blog is over because my heart is so focused on Jesus and service for Him, that I don’t have room for anything else.  He is my King, my Comforter and THE Love of my life.  Through prayer and fasting He has showed me that my that my season here is over. I only write this last post to say, if you are reading this, please take the signs of the times seriously.  If you turn toward Him, read His word, He will enter in so quickly and fully, for He doesn’t want any to perish.

His love is beyond measure and His kingdom is a reward for our faith. He’s coming so very very soon!  The time to make your choice is NOW!!! I do not know the hour of the day, but it is so soon I feel urgent to warn at every opportunity.

Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. For it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. Be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man.” (Luke 21:34-36)

Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left. Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him. (Matthew 24:40-44)

May God Bless You and Praise Jesus my King and Savior.



Lord I’m ready now.
I’m waiting for your triumphant return. (You’re coming so soon).
This world has nothing for me,
I find my peace and joy solely in You. (Only in You).
I want the world to see,
You’re alive and living well in me.
Let me be a part,
of the harvest for the days are few. (You’re coming soon).
So People get ready,
Jesus is coming soon
we’ll be going home.
People get ready, Jesus is coming
to take from the world his own.
People get ready, Jesus is coming.
Soon we’ll be going home.
People get ready, Jesus is coming
soon we’ll be going home. (We’ll be going home).
Verse 2:
Theres a day that comes
when we will be divided right and left.
(For those who know Him and those that do not know).
And those whoknow Him well, will meet Him in the air.
Hallelujah! (God is within us).
And those that do not know, they will hear “Depart I knew you not.”
For my friends you see,
there will be a day when we’ll be counted.
So know Him well, know Him well.
(To take His own, to take His own…).
(We’ll be going home, we’ll be going home…).
For my friends you see,
there will be a day when we’ll be counted.
So know him well, know him well.

 Crystal Lewis – People Get Ready Lyrics

Daniel 12:1-2 At that time shall arise Michael, the great prince who has charge of your people. And there shall be a time of trouble, such as never has been since there was a nation till that time. But at that time your people shall be delivered, everyone whose name shall be found written in the book. And many of those who sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake, some to everlasting life, and some to shame and everlasting contempt.

Acts 3:19-21 Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord, and that he may send the Christ, who has been appointed for you – even Jesus. He must remain in heaven until the time comes for God to restore everything, as he promised long ago through his holy prophets.

Revelation 22:20-21 He who testifies to these things says, “Yes, I am coming soon.” Amen, Come, Lord Jesus. The grace of the Lord Jesus be with God’s people. Amen.

Show Me That Smile!

Did you know  that smiling actually makes you, the person smiling, happier regardless of the situation. Normally we are hardwired to smile only during pleasant situations. The brain in turn releases endorphins which lowers stress and improves your overall mood, hence making the situation pleasant.


6 ways to get in the habit of smiling more:

  1. Smile the moment you wake up.
  2. Remind yourself in the morning that you are going to smile more today.
  3. Set reminders to smile. Put a reminder in your phone , a note attached to your visor, written on the mirror, or taped to the fridge.
  4. Create cues to smile.  When your hand hits the door to your house, when you enter work, or when you see a stop sign. Pick your cues and look for opportunities to use them
  5. Think happy thoughts.Practice leaning your thoughts into something positive.  In a frustrating situation look for something good in it.  Every day try to find something positive to contemplate.
  6. Smile at everyone you see today. And tomorrow. And the next day. And every next day after.

















Just Breathe

Just Breathe

So much can change in a few hours.  From the time I began my earlier blog at 2:30 am to about 30 minutes ago the abrupt outbursts from others in the house are pushing me over the edge.  I pressed on with my itinerary… was in the shower at 7 and on my walk with unfortunately dog only at 7:30.  I came back and hung the valance in my office and tried to just ignore the random yelling.  But finally, I just couldn’t take it… “Do you know how much I want to yell at everyone in this house on a daily basis?!!” “Please for the love of God Stop!” I suddenly feel overwhelmed with anxiety.  My heart is racing, my breaths are labored, my senses are overloaded.  I sat outside after taking anxiety med (little extra) and there come the tears… OK time to move on. Here are tips on how to deal with my specific anxiety glitches… focus JenFaFa… I am sticking to my schedule … Just gotta get through this moment….

 How to Slow Down Your Racing Heartbeat When Feeling Anxious


One of the most common and frightening symptoms of anxiety is a racing heartbeat. When I was suffering from frequent panic attacks, my heart would beat so furiously that I worried I was having a heart attack. The following technique can be used to help calm yourself down and return your heartbeat to a more normal pace when feeling anxious.

It all starts with a deep breath…

When you feel overwhelmed with anxiety, take a very deep breath through your mouth and hold it in. While continuing to hold your breath, flex or tense every muscle throughout your body as intensely as you can. Feel every inch of your body tremble from the strain. Continue squeezing your muscles for 5-10 seconds, and then immediately relax every muscle as you slowly exhale through your nose.

As you exhale you will feel an incredible release of tension and stress throughout your body. Your heartbeat will slow to a more natural and relaxed pace as does your breathing, which helps to calm you down.

Breathe normally for the next minute or so and then repeat this exercise. Doing just one or two iterations is often enough to provide tremendous relief.

I’ve used this technique to overcome panic attacks when flying, stuck in traffic, and before public speaking. It helps provide immediate relief and can snap you out of an anxious state of mind. When anxiety arises, give it a try.


Accept that you’re anxious.

Remember that “anxiety is just a feeling, like any other feeling,” said Deibler, also author of the Psych Central blog “Therapy That Works.” By reminding yourself that anxiety is simply an emotional reaction, you can start to accept it, Corboy said.

Acceptance is critical because trying to wrangle or eliminate anxiety often worsens it. It just perpetuates the idea that your anxiety is intolerable, he said.

But accepting your anxiety doesn’t mean liking it or resigning yourself to a miserable existence.

“It just means you would benefit by accepting reality as it is – and in that moment, reality includes anxiety. The bottom line is that the feeling of anxiety is less than ideal, but it is not intolerable.”

Use a calming visualization.

Hyland suggested practicing the following meditation regularly, which will make it easier to access when you’re anxious in the moment.

“Picture yourself on a river bank or outside in a favorite park, field or beach. Watch leaves pass by on the river or clouds pass by in the sky. Assign [your] emotions, thoughts [and] sensations to the clouds and leaves, and just watch them float by.”

This is very different from what people typically do. Typically, we assign emotions, thoughts and physical sensations certain qualities and judgments, such as good or bad, right or wrong, Hyland said. And this often amplifies anxiety. Remember that “it is all just information.”

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That was very helpful.  There go my thoughts on those balloons.  Flying away from me effortlessly.


Look at this guy.  Just chillin.  Ahhh …a smile creeps to my face.

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I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day
It’s gonna be a bright (bright)
Bright (bright) sunshiny day






A Little Reminder To Myself

A Little Reminder To Myself

Just wanted to give myself a pat on the back.  Here I am a month in without medication and going through daily emotional roller coaster and I am doing so well. The depression has been the hardest by far but still I press on.

Yesterday pushed me to a potentially dangerous place. But as I have found out over the past year, going to my blog has been a huge therapeutic tool.  I can sometimes spend an hour or more searching for tips, pictures or quotes or rewriting my post till it feels right.  Except my last one.  That one I just wrote and posted.

A year ago I would have lost it over the things that I am facing daily right now.  I would become useless, enraged or obsessed depending on the situation and sometimes just my stupid mood.

Last night as I was writing my blog on tips to deal with angry people, my daughter kept coming in trying to distract me because she was bored.  My husband kept calling me from the kitchen.  But I told her for the 4th time I am busy so she finally left me alone and I pretty much ignored him.

Last week I was ready to give up.  This week except last night, I simply copied and pasted what I needed to hear and it’s working.

To sit alone just focusing my energy on this task has become so intricate to making changes I didn’t think I could. Aside from being an outlet for me it inspires me to do better.


Another thing that happened prior to the mean person yesterday was deciding that I am pushing through this depression starting now.  Nell and I have both been in a very co-dependent slump and I made a deal with her that we are going to start a morning itinerary of our own to dos for the day.  We are going to hold each other accountable if we catch each other sitting too long.  Starting this morning we are going to push.

  1. We are going to take a shower with our first cup of coffee regardless if I’m working at home.
  2. We are going to take a 30 minute walk  with the kids and dog (thank you sunshine post).7:30 – 8 am when I am home, afternoons or evenings when I have outside appointments.
  3. We will take the kids to the library and park once a week
  4. Eat regularly and healthy meals (I sometimes don’t eat till dinner) and will have dinner ready when the guys come home.
  5. She will make work lunches the night before for her husband, I will pre-make coffee for everyone before we go to bed.
  6. I will work at least once a week on finishing my office and work on catching up loose ends on my desk,  she will pound the pavement for a rental and follow through on necessary errands.

I am taping this list to a few spots around the house and as my screensaver on my phone.  These 6 things are all I have to do.

I can’t help that I feel like mush, wrapped in darkness, wrapped in self pity,  wrapped in heavy.  I can however do what I have been doing in my blog… inspire myself.


Accountable is a Good Thing

Accountable is a Good Thing

Woot woot. I am holding myself accountable. I said i would have my office updated by end of march. I painted walls today and rearranged furniture and file cabinets. I have so much to do to tie it together but i did it… i actually took my first steps toward a completed task.  

I am gonna do this!!!! I cant wait to show before and afters 😄.

Awesome Sauce. Very good day.

Priming The Mind

Priming The Mind
Happify Challenge: We are “primed” to behave in specific ways by the words, aromas, colors, visuals, and people we encounter throughout each day. Identify a “prime” that you associate with a positive, proactive behavior or mindset that will trigger you to make progress on a valued goal, and put it where you’ll see it or use it.
For example, if simply wearing workout clothes makes you feel motivated to work out, set out your favorite workout top and bottom the night before and make them the first thing you put on in the morning. Or if you have a short mantra, like “Keep going,” make “keepgoing” the password on an application you frequently use so the inspiring message is built into your day.
Challenge Accepted:   Since a big part of my day is spent in my office, I think this could make for a great sanctuary.  I want to recreate it to be more welcoming and a place I love to find quiet in rather than just a place to work.  It is one of my biggest origins of stress, why not turn it into a place of peace. I have to give thought to the overall makeup of the room (color, storage, seating, lighting, decor, etc) but a good place to start is in the small things.
1)Smell: Nature scented candle in my office while I am working.  I like the smell of a fire or pine trees, maybe lavender.  Or maybe those oil sticks….
2) I will stream ambient music such as:
3) I will keep a reminder

above my computer

dont give up

And on my phone

Hold myself accountable….My mission is to have before months end a new office on a minimal budget which I will post the results.


An inspiring Oscar Pistorius moment: though he failed to qualify for the 400-meter Olympic final, the South African runner continues to be a role model for not only amputees but many others around the world.